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This site is mainly for my fiction and poetry and other thoughts aimed at a more general audience, though my other writing is certainly influenced by my world view which is essentially animist and Pagan.
Tuesday, May 31, 2022
Corvids and Cauldrons Reading Challenge
Saturday, October 9, 2021
Schrodinger's Bard
"Shakespeare's words" by Calamity Meg is licensed under CC BY-NC-ND 2.0
When I was teaching at the University of Georgia, one of my favorite tidbits to drop in the middle of Hamlet or Macbeth was the fact that there is no original Shakespeare.
Shakespeare himself did not publish his plays, because copyright law as we know it did not approach existence until 1710. The nineteen plays that were published during his lifetime were most probably not approved or overseen by him. The rest were published seven or more years after his death, and probably not from a written script, but from the memories of his actors.
Memory is a funny thing. There are actually two equally authoritative and mutually incompatible versions of King Lear. No one knows which one is the "real" one. Perhaps they both are; Shakespeare doesn't strike me as someone who would be afraid of a little retconning. Aside from protecting his intellectual property by the only means available, one reason why Shakespeare might not have wanted his plays in print is that then he'd be bound to that version. I'm just speculating, but he loved topical jokes and those often have an expiration date. Of course his other favorite, dick jokes, spring eternal.
Shakespeare introduced and possibly invented out of his own noggin something like 1700 words, and his turns of phrase are so common as to be found absolutely everywhere, from William Faulkner to Monty Python. He is probably the single most culturally significant writer in the English language. Yet we don't have his original, physical words at all.
The ambiguity and the lack of actual pages with his writing on them are also why there are so many theories about his work being written by someone else. I think he probably did collaborate on some things and he absolutely, definitely, without a doubt stole whatever wasn't nailed down hard enough. But there's no accepted body of evidence that any other person wrote what is attributed to him, certainly not that any one person did so. However, his looming presence in the culture means that the aura of mystery is attractive to the sort of person who wants to believe that the world as we know it is a tissue of lies and they are on the heels of the real truth.
Furthermore, Shakespeare has the colossal influence that he does partially because Victorian literary critics decided that he should. They lifted him up as the greatest writer of all time, and he therefore became almost universally read by anyone who could read English, to the point where if you made an allusion to or quoted him you could be sure that the reference would be understood, and then it just snowballed. At this point if you want to understand English literature you have to know Shakespeare. He is absolutely, aside from the merits of his actual writing, a kind of ur-example of hype...a situation he would probably find gratifying and hilarious. No one who loved a pun so much at that man did could fail to be amused by irony. And no one who could write Hamlet...a play that is very much about layers of perception, deception, delusion, and the possibly empty reality underneath...could fail to apprehend the irony of his own literary ghost.
Thursday, July 30, 2020
Wendell Berry and the Hidden Wound of Racism
If you are a white Southerner, you must read this book, which is short but concentrated. Other people will benefit from reading it as well; but Berry is speaking our language here, and depicting the culture we grew up in with compassion and humanity but also unflinching clarity for its particular flaws. Never mind the lies of America in general; we've been fed on particular poisoned lies for particular reasons, and Berry offers an antidote. Read it and be healed.
Sunday, July 5, 2020
Why "But the Irish Were Slaves!" is both wrong and racist
And that brings us back to "But the Irish were slaves too!" Aside from the fact that it's factually wrong, the only reason to bring that up right now is to somehow deflect from the argument that racism in the US is the legacy of slavery. I hope I have explained clearly enough what is wrong with that idea. But let's back up even further and ask a more pertinent question...
Why the hell would you want to do that? What do you, O fellow white person, get out of trying to undermine the idea that racism is a real thing that happens to real people and sometimes gets them killed? Why, when millions of people are marching in the streets in the hope of justice, do you think it's a great moment to waltz in with what would be a desperately irrelevant bit of historical geekery even if it were true? What reason could there be, except that you recognize that the status quo benefits you and you are choosing in this moment to defend it?
What the hell is wrong with you?
Friday, June 12, 2020
Trying to Build a Better World and Burnout
The breaking point, as it often is, was the ability of individuals to muck it all up, and people's general inability or unwillingness to resolve conflict or to deal with people who are operating in bad faith.
Understand, I put a LOT of energy into this. My first job was working for Greenpeace. I was involved with the environmental and anti-globalism movements, feminist activism around motherhood, and Occupy. On another track, I helped start and run various Pagan organizations and events, and ran a teaching coven for ten years.
At some point, I gave up. I still do political work, but it's mostly damage control. I'm not trying to create anything new. I'm just trying to keep it from getting worse. Which is probably why I have less energy and enthusiasm than I used to.
Don't get me wrong; I show up for certain causes, like Black Lives Matter; but they are driven by other people. I resist getting too deep into any activist group, because neither trying to adapt to an existing organization with fatal flaws, or trying to build up something from scratch only to have it blown up by someone whose ego is a stand-in for gasoline and a match, are scenarios I ever want to repeat. It's not even that I've never succeeded in building something that lasts; I have. It's that the losses are too costly.
I don't want to feel this way. It's a serious problem. But I do.
Aside from the fact that some of them are friends of friends, I find the accounts of the activists in this story entirely plausible because I've known people EXACTLY like this guy. Grandstanding, co-opting group work, leveraging charisma (including sleeping around, and it's often the men who do it) to gain positions of power, running people off who don't agree with them, ignoring what everyone agreed to because they think they know better, starting fights with the police that other people have to finish...all of it. They are quite often some flavor of bigot as well, in a "but I'm one of the good guys" whiney-ass way. Those people are incredibly destructive. They don't have to all be informants, most of them probably aren't. Some of them are super-dedicated radicals. They're destructive nonetheless.
I have quite frequently been the thorn in that person's side, the boring-ass consensus-process bitch who insists that we actually follow the rules we all agreed on that were designed to keep the group from being co-opted...et cetera. I have suffered quite a bit for it too. I'm angry, and I'm tired.
Friday, June 5, 2020
Arguing With White People
The other big problem is that it's like fighting sand in a windstorm. It's everywhere, it gets into everything, and you tend to wind up tired and angry with nothing much to show for it. Do it anyway. The results you get hardly ever show up immediately, but they build up over time.
Listening to people who are at the pointy end of white supremacy and reading about the subject is essential, especially the specific history of racism against African Americans in this country and how it functions. You can't argue a case you don't understand, and your feelings (shaped by the same white supremacist cultural propaganda that I mentioned earlier) may not be a reliable guide. You don't have to re-invent the wheel, either, and people have spent many decades and lots of thought on analysis of the problem. You can benefit from all of that for the price of picking up some books or following some blogs.
On the other hand, I think for white people trying to talk to other white people about racism, we need to carry the ball ourselves past a certain point. People of color often spend their whole lives thinking about the subject, have formal education on the topic in many instances, and have lots of experience arguing with white people about racism....but it's still different when the call is coming from inside the house. Or not as different as people might think, in some cases. I don't think people in general really realize how quickly and sometimes violently other white people will turn on you, though the white people who died during the Civil Rights movement and the current existence of a website dedicated to doxxing white women who date outside their race should offer a clue about that. Again I say: Do it anyway. Just realize that your fears can be valid and exaggerated because of white supremacist cultural brainwashing at the same time.
One advantage you have is that you can easily speak in terms that other white people understand...though it has limits. There are plenty of black people, who because of their upbringing or profession, can do that too. Biracial people frequently have lots of experience trying to get their white relatives to see the light, unfortunately. Sometimes people enter interracial relationships either despite their parents' vehement opposition, or in some cases because of it, which can lead to some screwed up family dynamics. Even when it's not that pointed, just because someone loves their biracial children or grandchildren it doesn't mean they have thought very deeply about race, and it is a topic that requires reflection before you can have any chance of getting the sand out of the gears. All of the biracial people I know, including my husband, have stories about wtf moments with family or friends. They also all know how to bridge the gaps and speak in language that their white relatives understand...and have run into situations where that simply was not enough.
Then there's the advantage granted to you just by being the person you are, in the body that you're in; what is otherwise called "privilege." It's not a magic wand or a cure-all (as any white person who grew up poor can tell you) but it is power nonetheless. It's a little bit of extra authority sprinkled on your voice and actions. It won't fix everything, but that's not your job. Your job is to speak.
Saturday, May 30, 2020
Speaking the Future Into Being
As when anything important happens, we all took to Facebook to argue about it.
For those of you struggling to keep up, please take note that hand-wringing about some windows getting broken after deafening silence on the matter of police murdering people with complete impunity, implies very strongly that you care a lot about the former and nothing for the latter, and that's what the kids call a you problem. That doesn't mean that everyone thinks smashing things up is a-ok or that there isn't some vocal condemnation of it from activists as well as assorted officials; it does mean that they are taking the time to put what's happening in context and express some nuance, a concept you might have heard of.
For my more conservative friends: Most of you have already identified what the important moral question is here. You might be fascinated to learn that some of the points you have been making lately are the exact things that people on the leftward side of the political spectrum have been saying for years, about the many other instances of police murder you inexplicably missed. You don't know that because you don't listen to them. You should try it. They might know other things you haven't noticed.
For my more radical friends: You are missing a golden opportunity here. People I would NEVER have expected to do so are openly questioning that stupid coroner's report on George Floyd, out protesting, or saying that they understand why people would get mad enough to break things. Maybe instead of focusing on criticism and calling anyone who voices it nasty names (like neoliberal, which almost certainly does not mean what you think it does), you should try to, I dunno, understand the critiques people are making and seize the opportunity to make connections with people you don't often find common ground with.
We need something better. We need something accessible, and welcoming, and above all visionary. Defining yourself always against what you are not creates emptiness, and fighting always against what is wrong (however necessary) is exhausting. We need the Beloved Community, and more to the point we need to describe what the Beloved Community is going to look like. It's ok if we don't all have the exact same ideas. It's the act of speaking it into being that is important here.
Here's one: I would like a means to resolve serious conflicts with people when it's beyond my personal ability to address, that does not involve calling the police. I have a neighbor who has put her hands on me while drunk more than once, among other incidents. There isn't actually a lot the police can do that isn't out of proportion to behavior that didn't actually hurt me (but which causes me distress and which I NEVER want repeated), and so there's not much between "ignore it" and "file a police report." I think a society that took conflict resolution and de-escalation seriously would have a third option for me...and that would incidentally likely reduce times the police are called due to vague "someone is walking around black in my neighborhood" type scenarios, and in turn reduce occurrences of police violence. I also think that a society where people commonly had good conflict resolution skills would function very differently, and much more justly and humanely.
What does your Beloved Community look like?